Jennifer

Thanks everyone so much for all the thoughts and prayers.

We just now got home, can you believe that? I’m so glad it is over.

We get there and Madisyn is pretty calm as I tell her we are all seeing the dr hoping that would keep her calm. The nurse come in and gave her some medicine to relax her before the anesthisology. She did wonderful with taking the medicine. The nurse said to watch her as she will start getting real drowsy and some kids get silly though. OMG Madisyn was in that some. She was a riot. She was laughing at everything and trying to talk but her words would slur.

I was laughing so hard at her. Scott said she looks like she is drunk. She would say get up here with me guys get up.. I’m not sure what she was trying to get us up to. Finally she just layed on my lap and kept looking up at me acting so out of it. They should have come then because she was so relaxed. But noooo they have to wait until the medicine is starting to ware off. I was so mad, because at this time she starts the fighting. They come to get us and she fights all the way down to the CT Scan. She did not want to ride in that bed, she couldn’t understand where they were taking her. I finally said I want to help push her and she was fine with that.

We get in the CT Scan room and they just take her from me and said ok you are going to have to leave now. I just start crying and said well they said I could stay with her. Nope go to the waiting room and we will come get you when she is done.

So we were waiting about 25 minutes and they come to get us and I can hear her. She’s screaming mommy, mommy… I get to her and the dr said she did good just that she fought them when they were putting her to sleep. I seen red marks on her arms so they must had to hold her down . I could have helped with this and it would have been much smoother.

They said we are going to take her to recovery now and I follow them. He said no you will have to go to her out patient room and wait for her. WHAT!!! She’s obviously screaming here let me go with her. I go back to the room and about 10 minutes later the nurse comes to the room saying we need you NOW. She will not calm down and wants her mommy. Of course.. she is freaked out of her mind. I got back there to her and she just leaps for me but she can’t get out of the bed as she is hooked up to all these wires. So we play trying to find the colors on the stickers they gave her and I sing to her just trying to get her calmed down. Finally after a while they release her back to the outpatient room and give her a popsicle.

AHHHHHHHH…. It is so sad to see your little girl in fear like that and not understand what is going on. They said we should know the test results by Monday. I sure hope so or I’ll be calling. I’m such a worry wart anyways.

Thanks again everyone and keep them prayers and thoughts coming that her test will be just fine.

I have a habit when something is not going right to say “Oh Gosh”… Well LOL, today my 19 month old got her baby caught in this net toy. She was walking around the house saying “Oh Gosh”. Hmm I wonder where she got that from?

You just don’t realize how much our kids watch us until they do something like this. We really are their role models and they look up to us all the time :). I love that though and I want to be a great and wonderful teacher to my girls.

I just need to watch what I say LOL as they will pick up anything ;).

Or at least I am.. You know I have always worried that something would happen to me and be taken away from my girls or something happen to one of my girls. It is a scary feeling that will always be with me.

Scott says I am going to have a heart attack by the age of 30. My kids are my world and they mean so much to me if you couldn’t guess.

When I took Madisyn into the Dr. Monday I figured we would be told yes you are an overprotective parent you can go home now. Let me go back a little bit. When Madisyn was 4 months old her head started growing at an enormous speed. Well off the charts. We waited till her 6 month appt as per request of her dr before we would pursue any testing. We had an ultrasound and it showed a cyst in her head. I just cried when the dr called me with the results. She said don’t worry too much we are going to go in for a CT Scan.

They said she would have to be sedated and I did not want my baby sedated. I sat there and rocked her till she fell asleep. They called us back and I said she is already asleep if we could go and do the test now. I put her down in the machine and held her tight and practically was half way in the machine with her. She never once woke up. I was so happy that she didn’t have to be sedated.

Those results showed fluid around her brain so off to a neurosurgeon we went. We went there for 3 appts and he pretty much just kept measuring her head and saying it looked like it was going on track so I made the executive decision to not go back. I just knew my baby was fine.

Past forward 2 years this past Monday. We went in and Madisyn is way off the charts again measuring as a 8 1/2 year old. The pediatrician says this calls for another CT Scan. I ‘m so scared. Deep down I believe everything is going to be ok and that it is just genetics that she is going to be big. But still the fear of the unknown worries me. We go in tomorrow and I have her a surprise.. Disney Princess Toddler Skates that she has been asking for forever. I just had to get my brave girl something to let her know how proud of her I am.

I’m going to try and put a smile on for my little girl and make it a great adventure for her so she will not be scared of the machine. While all the while deep down I will be crying inside and worrying until I hear the final results. Please Lord let her be ok and nothing alarming. Let the cyst and fluid be gone.

Madisyn mommy loves you so much and you just light up my world little sunshine with your little sissy. I thank the Good Lord for giving me you two beautiful girls. Hang in there sweetie and we will get through this together.

Love, Mommy