Little Sis

You know this weekend as I watched my girls, I felt a little sad. I can see them growing up into big girls now and the baby in them are going away :(. It makes me excited to see what brings us to the next step in our lives, but yet I will always yearn for my babies back. I know they will always be my babies but you know what I mean.

Madisyn is really into doing extracurricular activities now. We are signing her up for TBall next week. How exciting! She also wants to join dance and gymnastics for this summer. We will no longer have to pay preschool tuition so this will free up some funds for her to enjoy these activities this summer.

Well I know with dance she will need the dancewear. I came across the best blog post this morning with the cutest Dance skirts. I will indeed be getting Madisyn one. They are too cute!! Go here to check out what I am writing about. Katchy’s Kid Dancewear. Aren’t those just so adorable?

Anyways I know we will have our even more busier days now with the girls signing up for activities and I am excited about this next step in their development, but I still do miss the baby girls too. hehe.

Hey Valentines are not just for sweethearts right? This is the first year that my oldest daughter really got into Valentines. I’m thinking probably because they talked about it so much at her preschool. She was so excited for Valentines Day to come. She kept asking me each day for like the whole week before.

On Tuesday evening we sat down and did her Dora Valentine cards for preschool. I am proud to say she wrote her name all by herself on each one. I’m such a proud mom and I believe Madisyn was even prouder. She couldn’t wait to announce to her daddy when he come home.

So she was all stoked to go to bed Tuesday night so she could wake up for Valentines Day. Wednesday morning she leaped out of bed and said mommy HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. I love you mommy. There goes the heart melt. She definitely knows how to pull the oh heart strings ;). We did our morning routine and off to the preschool we go.

They had a great Valentines Party even inspite of the winter weather we had. It was so cute seeing the preschooler kids gush over their valentines. Madisyn definitely hit the motherload for cards and candy.

They even remembered her little sis ;). That was a big bonus in Lyndsee’s eyes:

Now just because preschool was over, we could not stop the festivities there now could we ;). We came home and made Valentine Biscuits for daddy when he came home. Our little homemade love gift to the greatest man in our lives :).

So it was fun making this Valentines a great family holiday and seeing the girls get all excited. It doesn’t just have to be all about mushy mushy sweethearts. Make it a family tradition and something your children will carry on with them through life and make traditions with their own family.

Today has been such a whirlwind. Sometimes I question my parenting decisions and today was definitely one of those times. I took my girls in for their well checks today. I have been skipping well checks for the past couple years but I had some questions I needed answered so I made sure I took them in today.

I knew my two year old was behind her vaccinations, and I didn’t want to get them all today so we just opted for two today. She screamed which just broke my heart but was fine afterwards. On to my four year old and I knew we would have our hands full since she is a very strong willed child anyways. Hubbs helped hold her while the nurses poked her three times. She had to have these vaccinations for her starting school UGGH :(. It’s so hard at this age because she really knows what is going on and her surroundings, but I know she needs the vaccinations as well. We got her up from being poked and her face turned white as a ghost and I knew something wasn’t right. Hubbs said she will be fine unless her knees start knocking well they did and out she went. I went running down the hall to try and find the dr but I couldn’t find him so I grabbed the nurse. I was crying and screaming because I was worried the death that the vaccinations had went to her heart and something was happening to my little girl. I bent down on my knees and balled my eyes out. The nurse said you need to step out of the room please. I was furious. Here I was so worried about my little girl and they are asking me to leave the room?

Turns out she just passed out, but I still don’t have answers why she passed out for. Gosh I love my girls so much and to think that I could have caused something so bad to my little girl is just beyond words for me. I kept kissing her and telling her I was so sorry and she wouldn’t have to get anymore shots that she was all done. She was crying to but she still had that sweetness in her that always comes out. She said mom I am sorry to make you cry. Isn’t she adorable? I said honey do not worry about that. Mommy was just upset cause her little girl got sick. I love you and didn’t want anything to happen to you.

As if that wasn’t enough drama for today, back a few months back they found dark spots on her brain in a scheduled CT Scan. Well they want her to have a MRI now, but she needs to see a Pediatric Neurologist first to go from there. I have been worried sick of what these dark spots are and just ready to get some answers of what is going on and we can put this behind us. He said that it would be an all day event pretty much because she would need to be put to sleep a lot longer than she was with the CT Scan. The thoughts of me having to have her deal with dr’s again gives me a sick feeling. Moms suppose to be the protectors and when she sees me letting someone cause pain to her, the look in her eyes is so depressing and just downright sad. Hopefully we can get this taken care of and everything is going to be ok with my little girl.

I love you girls and mommy will always protect you with all her heart. You are her heart and soul.