Emotions Running High

Since a certain visitor decided to visit me early HA!… my emotions have been all over the board… so I'm rambling.

Why does the never ending paperwork keep piling up on my desk? Well today I decided I was going to take care of that paperwork. Find the right pediatrician for my girls, find the right insurance since our move to Florida… and you know since I'm the SAHM/WAHM I am in charge of this… any other week I don't think all this searching today would have got to me, but just when I can't find the perfect scenario for us I just busted out crying here at my desk today. I want to make the right decision for my girls and the right decision for our budget on the the car insurance situation. This visitor is making my life harder today HA!

Then as if my emotions are not already running high,  keep flipping the tv on to CNN ever hour on the hour to get an update on the miners. It just tears my heart to pieces to wonder if they are still alive and are begging and screaming for someone to find them or if it was all just too much for them and they have already went to meet our wonderful God in heaven. I can't even begin to imagine what the families are going through with all the ups and downs of the days. My heart really goes out to all the families and just please know we are praying for you all!

This evening… after all those emotions all day "The Man" walks in and hugs and kissed the girls and I and I just break down.. hun am I a good mommy, am I doing enough of trying to be a mommy and help providing a living for us. Am I doing enough, please hun tell me. The look in his eyes… he just knew that this dang visitor was meeting me today. HA! He always does so good reassuring me that I am doing just fine and quit beating myself up.

I'm telling ya, I don't know why my emotions run so high during this time, but its like I have no control over my body that someone has taken over. Well guess what visitor… few more days you know I will be kicking you to the curb and you quit bringing such crazy silly hormones to me ok? You hear me? Thanks that's what I thought.