Filled With Emotions

You know looking back on the last year and half, its been one crazy ride. Just two years ago, we were so stable, had a great savings cushion, and seemed to have no worries. That was all gone in the blink of an eye it seemed. I have learned to give it all to God and he will bring me through any hurdle that I am trying to overcome.

At church yesterday, we stood up to sing “Just as I am” and the spirit of God just got a hold of me and sent chills down me. The tears just started flowing and I proceeded to go to the altar to pour it all out to God. It felt so good to talk to him and just let him know I want him to guide our family in the right direction of where we need to be, let me be a better Christian mother to my girls and a better Christian wife to hubbs. I was boohooing my eyes out. Our pastor came over to me and kneeled down and started praying with me. It was like just a sense of relief was washing over me.

I went back to my seat and just grabbed both of my girls up and hugged and kissed them… then touched hubbs hand to let him know this is all going to be alright. I knew he could feel the spirit as well as he was in deep prayer.

It’s just so amazing how I felt God all over my body telling me, that life is going to be just fine. We are on the right path. After service, I immediately went to hug a very dear friend Cindy and told her I loved her. She did something so special for our family a few months ago, that just brought me to tears then. I knew she did it out of love, but she didn’t have to. I just wanted her to know, that I loved her for that and appreciated it so much. I’m so happy that God has let our paths cross again since we moved back from Florida. We will be neighbors again… I just know it :). Plus I get to see her everyday anyways now since I am watching her beautiful baby boy that has to be the easiest baby. Love you all Cindy!

God is good… he fills me with all kinds of emotions, but I know I left out of church yesterday just feeling so refreshed that life is going to be so awesome, I just have to trust in him and his will he has for us. I’m so thankful for finding this church. Such an amazing group of people.