As I was sitting in church this morning, it really came to me. I have finally found myself. I really am Jennifer Houck.
I will be honest and say the last 3 to 4 years, I have lived my life to please others. It didn’t matter what I was doing, I just wanted to make everyone happy. Everyone always came before me and even my family at times. I would hide behind this computer screen and be someone that just wasn’t real. I knew I was depressed. I felt like I never really got over post-partum depression. Last three years have been so hard with all the ups and downs in life, it would just spiral me out of control.
The last 3 months have been very changing for me. I have woke up and realized what type of person I was being. I was wallowing in my own pity in hopes that it would make me more happier. That has all changed so much. I am so happy now and have found myself. I am a mom, I am a wife, I am a sister, I am a daughter, I am a grand-daughter, I am an aunt, and so on. I really truly know who I am. The most important, I am a child of God. I have turned to him so much in the last 3 months and so letting him guide our lives… it is soooo wonderful. I have never been happier and felt so blessed. It’s like this big rock has been lifted off my chest.
I am not hiding behind the computer screen anymore. I know how to turn it off and put it away. I just love life and could not be more grateful. God will provide for us and lead us not into temptation if we just will follow. I am not hiding behind my doors in my house anymore. I gladly open the door and go outside to the real world to be involved. I love helping others and being there for others, I just know my boundaries now and don’t have to make sure I am pleasing everyone.
I am down now 30+ pounds too and still going until I meet my goal. I am doing it the healthy way and have got my whole family on board with this new lifestyle. It’s so great because we all are working together to rid our bodies of toxins and replenishing with all healthy foods and vitamins. It just makes you feel great about your own inner and outer self.
Life is so awesome now that I have found myself. I am embracing life and my surroundings. I am paying attention to the small things and not only trying for the large things. Thank you Lord for waking me up and realizing there is life out there. I love my life.
As my daughter asked.. “Mom, are we rich?” I said, “We are indeed Rich… Rich in LOVE!”
I just wanted to share this with my grateful mommy blogging community. You have been on this ride with me for 3.5 years, and I just wanted to shout from the roof tops.. I have found myself! YES!!!
You go girl! Always be true to yourself. “Keep your face to the sun and the shadows will fall behind you!”~~Hellen Keller
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yes, yes YES!!!
Congrats Jen! It’s major when a mom has this awakening and realizes she has to put herself first. And I love your response to your daughter 🙂
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What a wonderful thing to have found yourself. Very profound and uplifting.
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I am so happy for you Jen. Life is so much better when you are happy with yourself and you know who you are.
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You know I am so glad that I got to hear Brent’s service yesterday. As I sat and listened to him, I knew God had sent me to listen to him and think about things. We are to serve our husbands and take care of our families, but this really opened my eyes.
I have to learn to put myself first and love myself before I can really truly love and take care of my family the way it needs to be taken care of.
I told Brad how I wished we had been there for last weeks service, and can’t wait to hear more from him.
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Yay!! That is awesome…and I love that you have turned to Christ for help too. 🙂 Way to go…and I’ll be cheering you on from way over here in Canada!!
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Awwwh reading that post gave me chills and put tears in my eyes. I’ve been trying to find myself for several years now…I’m still working on it. But after reading this it gave me hope and belif that I will find myself. Thanks for sharing and congrats on the awesome weight loss!
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That was a wonderful post. Whenever things look down, remember your secret wealth… 🙂
~Wishing you the well
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Iam happy for you Jen. There will be ups and downs in life, but waking up and realizing is greatful.
Thanks for sharing,
Lisa
There’s always a fine line to balance between not putting yourself first and putting yourself first too much, but once you find that balance it’s a beautiful thing. I’m happy that you have!
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Very sweet post, by the way…
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A very sweet post. I like the information. I have seen many women leading such a life. I remember the quote, “Life is to live, but only once”. so enjoy it. Am happy that as a daughter, wife, sister, mom you make yourself happier and also others. You will rock.