There once was a mom that loved to smile and make others laugh, but her crooked smile would over shadow her beautiful face. A point came in her life, that when she would talk to others, all she would think about—is her crooked smile.
That mom is ME!
Ever since I was a little girl, my jaw has been off centered. You see, one side of my jaw stopped growing while the other side of the jaw continued to grow. At least, this is how it has been explained to me. I was told as a teen, that one day my jaw would lock up on me. I feel like I am on borrowed time with my jaw so after talking with an orthodontist today and my husband, it is time to put the braces back on and go through with the jaw surgery.
My jaw gives me a huge complex. Especially, when I am talking to others, the first thing I think about– is that person noticing my jaw and/or teeth?
Many people have told me that my jaw is what makes Jen and I should have no worries about my jaw. Those two statements are easier said than done. First, I get frequent headaches and jaw pain. I have just learned to deal with it and will not complain. What is the use right? Secondly, how can I not worry when my face stares me in the face each and everyday?
As a teen, I went through braces, the surgery wires and was all prepared giving my blood for my 6 hour jaw surgery. I was so ready to put all of this behind me and move on with life until insurance stopped me in my tracks unfortunately. All the hard work that braces did only to be stopped and say I could not go any further because insurance refused to pay for the $30,000 dollar surgery. I will admit, I shed quite a few tears. Fast forward to my 30’s now and here I am ready to start the journey all over. Where will I get the money? Will insurance pay this time? I am leaving it in God’s hands. I pray he will provide and I can put this all behind me finally.
If you see me, you don’t have to stare. Please just enjoy my personality and not my crooked smile!
